You know, I probably went to hard on that pastor for that Easter service. I am sure that he is a good man, with good intentions. He probably is just like me; he wants to know God and help people. It is just that I am so frustrated right now with so many things in this religion, but this blog is not supposed to be yet another Church-bashing site; it is supposed to be my reflections on my personal journey of re-discovery.
You see, it has been a point of frustration for me to know that most of my professors know (and I mean know) that there are many things in the bible that are false; they know the borrowed myths, and they know the history. They know that Paul only wrote 7 or the 13 gospels attributed to him; they know of all the additions, deletions, and heresies–yet they teach the student body otherwise.
Sure, if you get them one-on-one they will admit to having this knowledge, but they will never state it in the classroom, and then these students go out and start preaching what they have learned as fact. It is bothersome to me.
Mainly because I fail to see any good that comes from it. What is the motivation? Why add fuel to the fire of ignorance? Why do we continue to teach things that we know not to be fact as fact? Why do we educate people into falsehoods? Is it for the greater good?
Today in an evangelism class we learned about how well the charismatic religion is spreading in Third World countries, and how we are specifically targeting the hopeless, poor, and uneducated; that they are flocking to this teaching like sheep to the slaughter. Same thing the Evangelicals and Methodists did in England during their revival; among countless other cases. Although, at least those guys were also standing up for better working conditions, prison conditions, against child labor, and later… slavery.
What are we improving? We are working on building a faster, yet smaller computer; or a cooler iphone–not people’s lives. Heck, we will bomb you to keep our oil costs down, and most of these impoverished countries build the crap we like to buy. We own or invest in the companies that are hurting these people… and then we tithe.
Do we educate these people–no. Do we improve their working conditions–no. Do we help them in their poverty–no. No we do not. We target them with a gospel full of hype, false promises, emotion, proposed miracles, and mania. We do nothing to improve the physical quality of their lives.
I am just sick of knowing and seeing firsthand the mechanics and strategies of this machine we are all in. Who knows, maybe all this doubt and struggling is like Luther’s? Maybe God is burning something deep within me? Maybe there is another reformation at hand?
Or maybe I just need to go meditate some more…
I had a great experience in meditation today where I imagined I was talking to myself as a child; the me before I learned to fear, regret, and before I learned what to believe and not believe. I saw myself, enjoyed his smile–it made me smile. Then I tried to explain to him that he was ok, a good kid, that he was not evil or bad, and that he did not have to be like all the others. That God likes him just as he is, and not to listen to anyone who says otherwise.
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